Wednesday, January 5, 2011

Day Three...First Love...REALLY???

This one could go in so many directions for me, ugh! I have actually been thinking about what I was going to write on here for the last few days and it has kinda got me stressed out. Oh well guess I will just dive right in.

So when I first started thinking about this I was like, so my first love would have been in elementary school, and it was TJ Wickman. I know I know for those of you Midway folks but yes it was him....and then the week changed and there was someone new on the playground to chase :) So the first, chase me on the playground, write all over my notebook kinda of love was TJ.

Then jr high and high school came and I really didn't date anyone. I would like someone for a while and then we would start talking and then I was over it. Nothing lasted more than a few months until my crush was someone new. Looking back on it now, I hate the fact that I would do that. I just thought that the next guy would be the one that I would REALLY like and the one that I would want to spend more time with but it never happened. I was never content so I never really had a first love in high school.

Once college came I did meet someone and I did fall in love with him. He was my first love...or so I thought. The love I had for him was just on the surface, and didn't go much further than that. We rushed into a lot of things and because of that things ended in heart break. We did care a lot about each other and there was love there but now I see the difference.

Which brings us to now, my first and last love. My husband is the man that I can truly say is my first true love. He is the man that comforts me when I am sad, he laughs with me, cries with me, listens to me complain about stupid crap and more. The love I have for him is not even comparable to any other love I have had in my life and because of that I know that this is love. I know it might be cheesy for me to say he is my first true love but its how I feel. He has it all...I would chase him on the playground if we were kids, I would want him to be the guy I found in high school that stuck around after a few months, and he is the guy I found after college that I love on a much deeper level than I ever thought possible. Its the type of love that no matter what is going on in my life he is my rock, my comfort, my voice and more. That to me is my first love, the love that last no matter what, the type of love that makes me want to be a better person.

My First Love

1 comment:

Vanessa said...

OK so first off TJ...Love it! First loves are amazing I am glad that you married yours!