One of those days...

Ever had one of those days where you felt like no one cared. Well today is my day. I have done a few things the past few days such as send emails, text and so forth to people and have heard nothing back. This really upsets me and it makes me feel like they just don't care about what is going on with me. I don't even like to bring this up because when I have brought it up in the past it just gets blown off. I am told I am over reacting but I don't feel like I am, but I guess maybe I am. Who knows, all I know is that I am upset and hurt by some of the events that have been going on in my life lately.

On a brighter note, I was in KS this past weekend for Matt and I's first pre-marital counseling appointment. It went great! We actually chose the pastor from his dad's suggestion and this was the first time we had ever met him. We both like him and know he will do a great job. We were both very comfortable with him, open and honest, and he was the same with us. It helped calm our nerves a little once we finally met the man that will marry us.

I also spent Saturday night over at Matt's cousin Jenny's house with Kerry (my future mother-in-law), Kim (Matt's counsin), Gayla (Matt's Aunt), and their friend Patty making our invitations. It was a lot of fun, but also took a long time. The invitations are not perfect, aren't cut perfectly but they are home made and made with love. We had fun just sitting around telling stories and having girl time.

Kerry had been great through this whole process. She has helped out a lot and I can't thank her enough. She and her sister's are very crafty so a lot of the things that are being made they are helping with. It is hard because so much is being done in KS that I feel like I am leaving out my mom and sister. Kerry doesn't have any daughters so this is something she will only do once, and I guess I feel like my mom and sister have already done it that I don't want to ask them to do it again for me. Maybe I shouldn't see it that way. Things are tough when it comes to this. I just don't know what to do anymore.

Lately I feel like everything I have been doing is wrong. I need to get out of this funk soon. I hate feeling like this, and I hate being hurt by the people that I care about the most. Life...ugh!!!

I need to get better at this...

I have such a hard time getting on-line and posting anything. School started this past week and I have been busy with schedule changes, class excuse letters, and students getting eligible for the meet this weekend. I love my job, but this time of year is very stressful. But it keeps me on my toes!

Matt and I worked out a budget, which was pretty interesting. We finally figured out how we are going to finish paying for the wedding in the next 3 months. It actually was not as bad as we both thought it would be. We are heading to Kansas this weekend to begin our pre-marital counseling, so it should be interesting. We are both very excited for this time, and very ready for April to be here. We have everything together such as location, catering, cake, decorations, dj and attire. The only thing left is flowers and I am still trying to decide on them. Below are our table decorations. I will be making the decorations so it will be very special to see it all together on our wedding day. Thanks to my mom for helping me figure out what would look best. I think we spent over 2 hrs in hobby lobby one day. They also had an employee come watch us :) I guess they thought we were up to something. But Thanks Mom! I really enjoyed our day together.

I hope 2009 is going great for everyone! Things are falling into place for the Soon to be Schafer's.

Been a few weeks...

It has been some time since my last post. This is due to a few reasons: 1) I was in Utah for Christmas and did not have very good internet access. 2) I was in Waco the weekend after Christmas for Emma's 2nd birthday and helping my sister move. 3) since we have been home we have been busy cleaning the apartment, unpacking Matt and both trying to get over a cold. So needless to say I have not had much time to blog.

Christmas was great. I was able to spend it in Utah with Matt, his parents and his brother. We went to Utah because Nick (Matt's brother) did not have any more vacation time from work and was going to spend Christmas alone and we could not let that happen. We had a blast. This Texas girl has seen enough snow to last her a few years though! During the day on Christmas Eve we went snowmobiling and snow boarding. I enjoyed trying to snow board :) It is actually a lot easier than I thought it would have been, except when I got to going to fast and could not steer. Matt was not so good at it so he stuck with snowmobiling.

Emma's birthday was great. She is now in her terrible two's, which she showed a little of at her party. She is talking a lot now, and has the cutest personality.

Not much else has been going on, just getting settled, getting ready to go back to work, and trying to get this wedding taking care of.