I woke up today knowing it was time to start focusing on my relationship with God. I have been mad, really mad at him lately and when I am mad I ignore him. That is NOT what He wants and I know that, it is just my way of coping with my pain. Yes, I understand that I need to seek Him during my pain along with my joys but I have a hard time with that.
There has been a lot and I mean A LOT going on in my life the last few weeks. Some joys, some pains but mostly me just walking through life unaware. I just go through my daily task as if nothing is wrong and do what needs to be done. I don't do more to lift my spirits so I just walk through life in a daze.
Today that will change. I started reading a new book called "Jesus Calling" by Sarah Young. It is a daily devotional and I was hesitant to start because obviously it starts January 1. I figured I need to stop making excuses and just start so I jumped to today June 21 and this is what it says..."Wait patiently with me while I bless you"
Hello slap in the face! He is telling me to be patient. Yes I believe that 2 years is being patient but that is not a long time for Him. That is very hard for me to do when I want something so bad but I know that He is watching over me and He is planning it all out in His timing. Do I wish His timing was sooner, yes but I know it is always right.
"But as for me, I watch in hope for the Lord, I wait for God my Savior; my God will hear me." Micah 7:7
I HAVE to believe the He WILL hear my prayer and He WILL bless me with a child.
So I leave you with the newest addition to the Schafer family...Hank!