Relieved...well kinda

So for the past few days I have been feeling sick every time I ate something. And so of course most people jumped on the pregnancy band wagon, and all I could think was no way! We just got married, we don't want a child this soon. I had all sorts of ideas of how bad it was going to be if I was pregnant and how the timing was all wrong and so forth. Finally I made a doctor's appointment, because it was getting pretty bad. Food, the smell of food, weight gain and so forth. I had prepared myself for a positive outcome...and it was negative. The doctor confirmed there is no little schafer's growing just yet :) She concluded that it was the pill I was on and changed it again.

So you would think I was relieved right? And I was a little but then another part of me thought of how great being a mom would be, and how much fun it would be to watch our baby grow, and learn new things, and all that fun stuff. So needless to say I am relieved that we are not having a baby because we did just get married and I want to just be with Matt for some time before we start a family.

I just get to keep being the best aunt in the world now! Some day when Matt and I are more ready (because is anyone ever really ready for a baby) we will try for some little one's. But I guess it is still ok to be a little upset that it wasn't positive.

Lea sent me this picture today and it made me realize that even though I don't have a little one yet, I can still spoil this adorable little girl.